brussel sprouts for one

I hate being single.  I know I should love it.  You know, do what you want when you want, answer to no one, don't have to worry about anyone else's feelings blah blah blah.  But I hate it.  I like having someone to think about.  I like the idea that someone is thinking about me.

Right now I get really upset and feel really hurt when I think about someone.

Today I wrote myself a sticky note and stuck it to the picture frame I keep on my desk. 

I feel so pathetic to have to constantly remind myself of this.  With the stress of work the past couple of weeks I really let my diet go.  This past weekend I worked really long hours then had way too much alcohol and way too much food.  I'm up 7.5 lbs.

But I think it'll all go away soon.  That time of the month is neigh and that always drops some weight... then I think I just need to enjoy lots and lots of water and try to get back to normal.  Unfortunately, I'm so exhausted from this weekend, the weekend that literally felt like it lasted a month, that all I've wanted to do the past couple of days is sleep.  I'm generally not like that, so that tells me I need the sleep.

Tonight I didn't want to spend too much time at the stove and I didn't want to use the oven because it's a little warm tonight.  I had some veggies in the fridge that needed to be eaten.  I sort of over ate, but most of what I had was vegetables, so I probably won't feel over full for long.

I will call this Brussel Sprouts with Bacon and Pesto.  It combines a couple things that I really appreciate:  precooked bacon and the ability to buy brussel sprouts individually!

Here's what you'll need:

1-9oz package of sliced mushrooms
5-7 brussel sprouts, quartered with stems removed
3 slices of precooked bacon
1 serving of egg noodles, cooked
1 Tbsp pesto
2 tsp olive oil

Cook your egg noodles according to package directions.  In a medium skillet, heat up the olive oil.  Add brussel sprouts and cover.  Cook a little bit before you add in the mushrooms and recover.  You might want to add in a couple tablespoons of water to get some steam going inside. 

Once pasta is cooked, drain and return to pot.  Stir in pesto. 

Cut bacon up to bite sized pieces and throw into veggie mixture to warm through.  Once veggies are cooked to your liking, stir in to noodles and pesto mixture.

This recipe made a gigantic serving.  And it was delicious.  And I'm so full!  You could absolutely have leftovers with this.  But if you eat the whole thing it's something like 500 calories.  But hey... half of that is the pasta.  The rest of the stuff is pretty good for you.

I'm looking forward to my life getting back to normal.

I'm also looking forward to the week of vacation I have coming to me at the end of July.  I'm not exactly looking forward to spending it alone. 

But my kickball league starts next week... and I'm trying to research things in my city that I would be interested in.  Looks like the same night as my kickball games they have open mic poetry nights at a bar here in town.  I'd never participate, but it might be awesome to check out.  Might also be some handsome poet that I could bat my eyelashes at.

I'm afraid that for the first time that I'm afraid to open myself up to anything for fear of getting my stupid little heart smashed into a million pieces.  At least I'm trying to let it get put back together before I let someone get their hands on it.

At least I still have food.  And myself.